Be Like A Child

I remember my first steps as a baby Christian. I remember my zeal! I knew God would do anything for me. All I had to do was trust and believe my Daddy loved me. And some how without a shadow of a doubt, I knew He did. When I read scripture, I took Him at His Word. If it said, believe and don't doubt, I made my best effort EVERYDAY to not allow doubt to sneak in under my covers. When the Word said, "Love," I loved. When He said, "Pray," I prayed and when He said, "Fast," I fasted.
Somewhere along the walk, I lost my youth in Christ. Throughout the use and abuse, throughout the persecution and pain, I lost my unwavering faith that Daddy loves me and He will give me anything my heart desires. (Psalm 37:4, Mark 11:24, Matt 21:22, Matt 18:19-20, Matt 7:11) In the processes and the waiting, somehow I've let hope wither thinking that my Hero on a white horse will never come rescue me. (Rev 18:11-16) I can blame the jaded veteran Christians who slowly snuffed out my toddler-like flame by saying, "You're just a babe. Enjoy it now," or "Wait until you've been in this a while, it gets harder." Or when I believed God for a brand new church van and I said God will send someone to pay for it, my leader chuckled a quiet, "Yeah right!" but we did get a new van within a year of that declaration. But I can't blame them and I can't blame you. I just have to get in His face again and again until I'm so trusting of Him, so sure of Him and so over myself that I'm willing to stand on a sink singing His glory once again. Knowing that if I trip, He'll catch me. And know without a shadow of a doubt that He gave me everything and everyone around me to do His will and it is ALL GOOD!! Because no one is better than me cuz my Daddy said so! (Phil 4:13, Deut 32:10, Rom 8:31-39)